Gratitude Is My Attitude.
Day 7
Re-reading this today I remember this day and these feelings quite clearly. I felt empowered to let go of what I could not control (something I have learned in the rooms of A.A.) and the relief of it no longer bothering me. Well at least it felt that way for a while. In retrospect I guess I have learned that there are things that you have to let go of more than once. Notice the “rough spell in the afternoon” comment later in the journal entry.
Had a good talk with “Jane” this morning. Told her we shouldn’t be together till we get our own stuff straightened out. So EMPOWERING!!
Going to a meeting for lunch with my new sponsor (name withheld).
Spent the whole day with (sponsor). Went to a meeting in the evening and then to pizza with several of the group.
Started Gratitude List.
Rough spell in the afternoon trying not to call (ex-girlfriend). Tough knowing I can.
The new sponsor turned out to be exactly what I needed at this time. We never really started to do the work together in the book. He did get me to start a daily gratitude list that I still add to today, albeit not everyday, but still adding. This is one of the things that helped me out the most in early sobriety. I was not told that I could be grateful for the same things everyday. I not knowing this began to compile a list of things that had no repeats. This made me go through my list quite often to make sure that I did not have anything twice, in doing so, I was reminded almost everyday of the amount of things I had to be grateful for in my life. This in turn created this ever growing source of positive energy in my soul, knowing I had so many people and things in my life that I appreciated.